Sunday, December 16, 2012


Isn't this a question we all ask outselves from time-to-time? I know I have wondered about this almost all my life and have questioned it on many levels.

Today, as I listen to the news (of which I don't really like to do but it seems like it is necessary to try to sort things out and try and answer that age-old question "Why", I try and understand about someone else's motives, someone else's thoughts. But we may never know. What I do know is about me and my motives, my thoughts, my process about trying to figure out the questions that I have about "ME", because essentially, that is all I can ever know. I can never know someone else no matter how well I know them or think that I understand them.

The above piece was the third posting on Seth Apter's blog and is featured in his blog this morning among many other people who sent in artwork to Seth. You can view my work and the work of many others there at For now, I leave you with the explanation that I wrote for Seth.
"I am living on the west coast. Torn in many directions. Conflicted, fearful, anxious, unsure of myself. Searching new directions. Searching new paths."

What I do know about "ME" is that I am happy that I found art in my life. I am happy that I am able to express my self in a healthy way with my art. I am able to question "ME" but throwing a bit of paint and objects up on a canvas, sewing threads with my grandmother's treadle sewing machine. It helps me make sense of the why's. Why am I hear? Why do I do that? Why does someone else do that?

Life is so confusing and complex but if you have a healthy outlet to express yourself you really have a platform in which you can ask the world all these questions. Mary-Helen-Fernandez Stewart is right "Art Saves Lives". I feel so lucky to have this outlet to explore and ask all the questions I need to or want to. I don't always get the answers I am looking for but I do have the opportunity to explore and question. That seems to be enough. Thanks Seth for allowing us to question ourselves and giving us a healthy place to do it. I am forever grateful!


  1. Thank you for sharing your process seems extremely confusing today....losses and your 5 by 5 demonstrates Hope and Promise of Peace, I am sending you peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

  2. We all need to make ART times of such tragic loss and sudden death of a dear Artist friend of mine... thank you for your loving support! I wish you peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

  3. Thank you so much for sharing your artwork and your thoughts for this project. I think we are all asking ourselves "why?" at this very moment. And even if we are not always able to find the answers, asking the questions is and always will be so important!

  4. i think art is a great medium of finding ourselves....i wish all found their path to understanding you know....we need outlets to express ourselves....

  5. Art is a wonderful outlet. It doesn't mean one has to be an artist or earn money or even practice it as a hobby. I think art, music and writing ate the only two are the only means of therapy that will bring real changes/help/aid to any person's life.
    Enjoy your art!