Yesterday was a very long and sad day and I am still trying to recuperate today but it is raining and a bit windy all day so it makes it hard to jump right back into things. I've found that it is best for me to just give in to what my mind and body are telling me to do when there are emotional things happening. Why try and pretend that you aren't sad when you are? Why try and force yourself to just go on as if there were no reason for pause, no reason for reflection? Life is just that: a chance to reflect on what has happened and understand how it has changed your outlook at the present time.
In the mean time I will pause and reflect on the beauty of this pea vine and ponder the good that it is doing for the soil. It will enrich the soil when it is tilled under, the grape vines will get vital nutrients and thrive, and some day in the future I will be able to enjoy a nice glass of wine from this vineyard. The circle of life continues. To be continued.