I WAKE TO FILTERED HAZE OF BLUE.
SUN HAS NOT JOINED ME BUT WAITS BEHIND TREES.
TAKE WARM BATH,
SOAK,
DRESS.
WALK QUIETLY DOWNSTAIRS.
EAT OATMEAL WITH BANANAS AND PEARS,
(NO MILK--JUST HONEY).
DRIVE TOWARD FOG BANK.
PARK IN MULTI-LEVEL STRUCTURE.
CHECK IN.
WAIT IN ROOM WITH FLESH-COLORED WALL.
ONE PAINTING ON WALL BY JOSEPH BELLACERA
"HILLSIDE #6-1999".
6: MY LUCKY NUMBER.
TODAY,
ALONE IN WAITING ROOM,
I THINK "WHO ARE THOSE THAT CARE ABOUT ME".
UNEXPECTED EMAILS FROM FRIENDS
(NOT LONG-TIME FRIENDS WHOM YOU'D THINK WOULD CARE
BUT NEW FRIENDS WHO DO CARE.
DISTANCE DOESN'T MATTER
ONLY LOVE AND LIGHT.
BOLSTERED BY THOUGHTS OF GENTLE SPIRIT,
DIVINE GUIDANCE,
THE GOOD.
LEAVING THOUGHTS OF DESPAIR AND REJECTION BEHIND TO FLOAT
AWAY WITH BREEZE IN HILLSIDE #6.
FUNNY THAT WHEN YOU REALLY NEED SOMEONE,
YOU KNOW IF THEY MATTER.
MATTER--
ANTI-MATTER.
RADIOACTIVITY COLLIDES,
DESTROYS,
CLEANSES.
THE ESSENCE OF LIGHT INSIDE.
You have written some beautiful words here but am trying to decipher if you are writing about going to the doctor? if so, I hope it is not serious-- wishing you light and comfort among your friends.
ReplyDeleteDonna--Yes, went today. I am having follow-up scans this week for last year's thyroid cancer. Crossing my fingers that all will be clear. Thanks for your kind words.
ReplyDeleteTeri, had no idea...do wish you well with results. I've had a thyroid condition for 13 years now but didn't have cancer! A worrying time for you...I'll be thinking of you! Hugs!!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today Teri, I hope the tests are all clear and that you can go back to eating a diet that's a little less restrictive.
ReplyDeleteI recently found a wonderful recipe website, 101cookbooks.com. I hope it inspires you.
woot. nice write...hope all shows clear as well..really like the flow, esp those last couple lines...
ReplyDeleteThoughts and prayers coming your way from Willow Manor. x
ReplyDeleteGosh .. i am sorry to hear this Teri ... my warmest wishes go with you ... i hope all is well >>>Gina
ReplyDeleteWell I was way off base yesterday. But, I remember my radiation experience being somewhat like Nuclear Proliferation. I'm sorry I didn't get the sign and understand. Sometimes I just don't.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are with you and may I recommend two books. One is called Creative Visualization by Shaki Gawain and the other is called The Places that Scare You by Pema Chodron. Good stuff. They have helped me immensely.
Take care....