It's almost midnight on Friday, May 14th, 2010. Today was Mary Ann's birthday. Just because we are not friends anymore doesn't make it any easier to not have her in my life and to be able to say "I love you...Happy Birthday". This picture was taken last year on my birthday. We spent the day together. That was what my heart told me to do. My mother told me to "follow your heart" and that is what I did. But today, my heart is breaking and I can't/won't/don't follow my heart.
I sit here at my computer screen with tears welling up in my eyes but she'll never know. I don't think she knows or wants to know how badly I am hurting. That's fine. I know in my heart what I feel. For me that has to be enough.
The caged bird
sings
with a fearful trill
of things
unknown
but longed for
still
and his tune is
heard
on the distant
hill
for the caged
bird
sings of
freedom.
---- Maya Angelou
tight verse...and rings so true. now my heart is heavy for you...
ReplyDeleteI really like this poem, and you express so well the difficulty of losing a friend.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Teri. So sad to lose a friend especially like that.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
I really like that you are sending her birthday wishes. I bet she will get them.
Sorry you have a heavy heart today, but glad you are talking about it, and sharing this with us. I feel your hurt and wish there was some way to lift you up. Beautiful poem and tribute to Mary Ann.
ReplyDeleteSending you my biggest hug.